22 years old and a whole life ahead of me, so why should I hold on to grudges or the past? The thing is, the past catches up wiht me and just when FORGIVENESS starst to see a light, PAIN/DECEPTION show up again. A constant struggle, a permanent battle. 

Nothing hurts more that to know you’re at peace with the world except with that half of your own blood. And this is the same blood, this shade of red we share, is the same force that keeps us both from discussing it. To allow the “Why?” and “Because” to travel the air as waves that hit right through the heart all the way to your soul and shake you and then… topple you over.